Have you guys ever experience about what do you want to do in the next years?. like what kind of people you guys want to be?. or what’s your dream? your vision?. .. well i’m gonna share my story about my experience and how does it happen to me.

Introduction/My Story

My name is Denise Rosseline,and i am currently a high school graduate. and i’m gonna tell my story about how all this starts. so Basically when you’re a senior in high school. you get these responsibilities and this particular mindset ahout where do you guys wanna go for college or university. and what major do you guys wanna take. and what job/carreer do you guys wanna have after we graduate university/college. that’s the difficult part. apparently i’m one of the unlucky ones. so a year ago i told one of my closest ones i wanna major for music. since i’m really good at music (i think of) but i didn’t think of about the consequences/advantage or disadvantages about it . instead i strive under peer pressure to get a university and college major to impress others.

i always feel like i wasn’t not good enough at that time and i wasn’t been supported about my dreams and achievements and i was crying because i hated myself for it. and i have anxiety and paranoia:(.
i remembered i was being asked ” have you figured what your major is,. ur already almost in university and college already”. it’s really stressful and nervewrecking because me myself havent figured out my goals are till now…. i was being doubtful and tensions arise:(.

Story Climax/Conclusion

I was being told ” Oh Denise cannot go to university or college because she can’t be independent…. and instead she cannot even take care of herself and the fact that i was told i cannot go to college and university overseas.
I remembered i was being compared that they can go to college overseas. and they’re independent. I really hate comparisons really. it’s really horrible to see the feeling. i have trust issues.
And i’m an introvert when i met peeps i just met and i am really shy and awkward. and i was told i cannot socialized so i was offered to this possibility school that he’s in At first i don’t want to guys… i thought i might be considered a weirdo.
But i decided to give in because i saw there’s a vocal class and i’m like very excited because i just love singing so much. but even if i have a hard time to have growth and development of myself or become the best versions of myself but i navigiate myself and try to adapt there.
so i’m gonna tell abit of myself . from my own point of view;So i’m currently a high school graduate…. my birthday is on a few weeks i’m gonna turn 18 and it’s really nervewrecking for the fact i’m afraid of growing up and i am gonna be a young adult like that idea scares me. imagine thinking about you got all figure out but to be honest we have honestly no idea what kind of us gonna be….
we are gonna be jobless who have no future. i mean i have to do something right?. i am just so glad i join a possibility school. i join a community of nice and friendly and kind people 🙂 i just want to prove myself that i am capable of change.
so about my dream,i want to be a singer,and i want to make a recording song of myself and i wanna make some music and inspire people by expressing my feelings through a song:).
I am currently on months of holiday break after a school exam government before my graduation from school…. and i’ve been like doing nothing and i don’t know what i’m doing besides watching tv shows/movies on netflix and i watch youtube.
It’s been rough like right?. others have been doing jobs,they did baking,doing sports and even do biking . but i’m not good of any of that (not trying to be a negative person here:) but of course i’m figuring out what i want to do besides becoming a singer;or singing my feelings out.
Okay i’m writing my first ever blog and it’s really nice for me to express my feelings and about how i felt and about my experience 🙂 i hope i can make a good impact out of it.
So back to writing,…. i honestly have a few bad habits like being paranoid,easily scared,and sensitive and i said things without thinking(impulsive,but not meant to be in a bad way) . and i always think negative about others and i often act negative when i’m stuck. and i cry easily… so i was considered a crybaby at some point. but when i cry i feel better . even part of me feeling wanting to yell and scream. i usually use this method where i take a deep breath and it kinda helps even though i tend to overthink it and i end up getting stuck again. but i have to stay strong and never give up on myself and learn to become the best version i want to be not what i was being expected to be.
But yeah my advice for the readers; Believe in yourself and never give up:) Nextly i will tell abit of myself more in my next Blog:) Thank you guys so much:) and i appericiate it:)
Sincerly; Denise R:)