another day <33

Summary

What’s the one thing you guys want to achieve but can’t because people around you are being judgy or pushy to you… and what’s the worse thing that you guys ever experience and how do you guys deal with it?. I’m gonna share about my story

haters gotta hate;
denise .

Introduction

hey everyone!! denise here:) i believe i write about myself yesterday,but i’m gonna share about myself more 🙂

So i’m currently a high school graduate,still figuring out what my major is; both college and university

and what confuse me is that even if you got yourself figure out but part of you wish ; is that what u really want?. i want to be an all time singer and make some music even if i can’t play musical instrument and i want to be both Singer and Blogger 🙂

I just found out i have an interest in blogging(just for fun) and i wanna explore what i love 🙂 i want to do things that make me truly happy and not truly forced .

Sooo back to my story.

Vent/Rant

Sooo i’m gonna talk about a subject titled Bullying and what is bullying?

Bullying is the use of force, coercion, hurtful teasing or threat, to abuse, aggressively dominateor intimidate. The behavior is often repeated and habitual. One essential prerequisite is the perception (by the bully or by others) of an imbalance of physical or social power. This imbalance distinguishes bullying from conflict.^[1]Bullying is a subcategory of aggressive behavior characterized by the following three criteria: (1) hostile intent, (2) imbalance of power, and (3) repetition over a period of time.^[2] Bullying is the activity of repeated, aggressive behavior intended to hurt another individual, physically, mentally, or emotionally.

This is the example this kid is being bullied and it’s really horrible what he is going through:(

So i was a subject to bullying back in i was in 7th Grade and 9th Grade and 10th Grade. I was a new kid in my school. and just two weeks in my school . so my ” new ” friends who are with me (a few of them) are going to the restroom.

And this kid who i’ve known since 5th Grade just turn my friends against me. telling i’m an autism and that i am a tattletale and other stuff.

I remembered i was in a chinese class when he did that. it breaks my feelings:( like at first it is normal) but my classmates starting to know and even the kids in my whole grade know about it.

and one of this girl from this Class Grade 7B asked me if i am a tattletale or something. and this guy who used to bullied me Is always grossed out by me and he hates me i guess.?.

I remembered i just got back from Physical Education Class in the field and when i returned to my class and kids started screaming at me and this girl who i thought was my friend called me names.?

I was like “…..” just because she was annoyed at me staring at her 24/7?. and this guy named A started bringing up parents . like why dont u report or tell to ur or dad about it. ooooo she will report again. . i was bullied by him along with his friend who also bully me i guess

And in the Eighth Grade i wasn’t in the same class as him. So i’m off the hook by now

But in ninth Grade i was put in the same class as him. long story short i cried the night before and called my class teacher ab it and the next day my principal and guidance counselor had to talk to me and even had to switch him to class A while i stayed in Class B.

And this kid . Let’s just say he knew about it. and he told A (the guy who bullied me) since they were in the same class. and of course he hated me and shaded me of it.

So in the second semester of ninth Grade three classes were combined into two classes because we’re gonna have a government exam. where we r gonna graduate from Junior High. and the bullying/teasing and shading got worse.

This kid let’s just call him B. spread rumors about me (long story short,we were put in the same group of a economics presentation). I was in korea so i don’t know.:: i was always picked last everytime there’s group projects or anything. and he just spread rumors out of nowhere about how apparently m m just scolded him for not inviting me to do a group project which was a lie coz apparently they just don’t know him that’s all .

And the guys from my class called me Boss. it’s kinda offending.

And In the 10th Grade i was in the same class as A and B and bullying rise in the second semester . So it was in IT class and we were made to made our file names.

And someone changed my file name. (*insert my name*) Statue . it’s just horrible. and i already tried being patient that he kept calling me mannequin challenge and statue. .

And yeah i wasn’t feeling okay and suddenly i cried:( . i felt awful about myself and i asked a friend if i can go to the sick bay in my school. and i realized i wanted to go to the guidance counselor

And my guidance counselor who is my class teacher just brought me to the Principal’s office along with three guys (A,B,C). and they just lied infront of my principal and my class teacher about it.

And i spent an hour in the principal’s office and of course i went home early and cry even if i was in my singing tuition. i can’t focus like…. it’s the most horrible thing happened to me.

Point of View

I always get triggered everytime i see bullying occurred. i am a very sensitive person,….. it reminded of me.

I became a quiet and shy and have low self esteem and low self confidence always have negative thoughts abut me and others. always get scared and always have a fear of it.

It’s really difficult to get over it even if We are asked to.

But my advice is ; don’t listen to people who bring us down,it’s not worth it….